Meadow of Passion, Part 2

WARNING: SPOILER ALERT! IF YOU HAVE NOT READ NEW MOON DO NOT READ THIS STORY!          


Meadow of Passion, Part 2


          After I had cleaned myself up from last nights event, the first thing I did was call Edward. I told him that I wanted to meet him at our meadow and to make sure that he fed as much as he could before coming. He tried questioning me, searching for anything that could lead him to what was going on but, for once, I didn’t fall victim to his sultry voice. I was glad once again that he couldn’t hear my thoughts since I had to make sure that he was completely in the dark. I told him to feed because, even though he didn’t want to kill me, it would take every ounce of control he had to stay focused and I didn’t want his hunger to make it anymore difficult for him. I choose the meadow because 1) that’s where we were in my dream and 2) it was a place that was special for us, our little piece of heaven.
          Thanks to the skills that I’d picked up while Edward was away, I was able to get to our meeting place without much trouble. It was only when I stepped into the clearing though that I remembered the last time I was here. I’d come on my own and ran into Laurent. I would have died if it wasn’t for those large wolves that came out from behind me which I later discovered where actually Jacob and the other Werewolves. I sighed as I thought of Jacob. It’d been so long since I’d last seen him or spoke to him and I knew exactly what the reason was.
          “Bella...” I turned around just in time to see Edward emerge from the tree line, a smile quickly spreading across my face. He rushed up to me, slightly concerned since he was still oblivious to what I had planned. He wrapped his arms around me and held me close, looking at me with his golden eyes. I breathed him in and my heart began beating even faster than it already was.
          “Bella? Are you alright?”
          “Yes Edward it’s just that…I’ve been thinking about things a lot recently. One of them being me changing.” He raised his eyebrow and his hopes lifted a little.
          “You don’t want to change? You’ll go with my plan to avoid the Volturi?”
          “No.” He shifted back to concern and bewilderment. “There’s something else that I want to add to our agreement. Something else that I want you to give to me or better yet…do with me.”
          “And what is that?”
          This was the fork in the road now. Did I really want to go through with this? Did I want to take the risk? What if he lost control? No, he wouldn’t. He’d do everything to protect me, to keep me safe. He wouldn’t hurt me…much.
          “I…I want to have sex with you.” He face turned blank, all of the concern and confusion washing away instantly. He looked at me, straining hard as if to see just once what my thoughts were.
          “What?” Apparently he hadn’t been successful.
          “I want to have sex with you.”
          “So that’s why you wanted me to fed, isn’t it?” I nodded. “I’ve already told you Bella, I’m afraid. I don’t know if I could contain myself. What if I lost control and killed you?”
          “You  won’t.”
          “How can you know that for sure?”
          “Because I trust that you will keep me safe Edward. I know you won’t loose control. I know because I love you Edward.” I kissed him on his lips softly as I kept my arms tightly around his waist. He could have easily gotten free from my weak grasp but he didn’t resist at all. Instead, he put one of his hands on my cheek and held our kiss. We parted slowly, looking into each others eyes.
          “I don’t want to kill you Bella…” I knew that this would be the bump I’d have to get over. Luckily, I’d actually planned this out and was prepared.
          “I want to have sex with you Edward. I want it to be part of our agreement.” His eyes narrowed and I knew that he knew where I was going with this. “Now, if we don’t, then I might just have to let Carlisle go ahead and change me right after I graduate.”
          “We’ve already made a deal Bella,” he said, growling softly.
          “Yes, and I want to add this to it.” I kissed him again and he calmed down slightly.
          “Please Edward? For me?” I continued to kiss him on his lips then I tucked me head into his chest, holding him close.
          “It explains why you told me to feed as much as I could this morning. At least you thought about helping me to control myself.” He pulled my head up gently and looked me in my eyes as he whispered.
          “Is this what you really want?”
          “Yes.”
          “And you’ll wait until we are married for me to change you myself?”
          “I will.”
          “And you won’t try adding anything else to our agreement?”
          “I won’t,” I said, smiling as I saw my dream about to break into reality.
          He leaned down and kissed me gently, passionately, nibbling on my bottom lip as he pulled his lips from mine.
          “Then I will…”